D Minor

They wait,

hushed silent,

loud     with anticipation;

centre stage he sits,

flexes fingers

loosens wrists,

addresses instrument,

becomes as one,

and so profound,

the beauty of it

enchants,

rushes to the soul,

checks respiration.

Prelude:

slow voluntary on diapasons,

full, solemn       outpourings

of harmonious sound

kiss, steal the ear,

excite the heart;

concerto:

(the beauty of it)

fills the mind,

expands the vision,

was aught ever more glorious

than this?

Anna: o]

Susan’s challenge (thank you Susan) at Poets United is that of to write a poem of a specific man who is special and I chose Handel.  I visited YouTube to find a video and elected the above.  Odd thing is (maybe) that organ music generally leaves me cold as does brass bands and definitely rap.  Handel - genius that he was - however does not leave me thus and so, to make the challenge more challenging, I wrote of music I don’t particularly like - as if I did.  And so above is my offering.  

And tonight, linked with the good folk at dVerse, hosted by Bill.  Cheers Bill! 

Video: courtesy of YouTube

Posted by: efrainc23

Poppy-red

Toril "Smells Like Rain"

Neath cumulonimbus clouds

fields’ fazed poppy-red:

terra firma smells of rain. 

And he, poor soul,

besmirched by those

who would secure,

decapitates the innocent

Terra firma fazed poppy-red

smells of rain.

Anna :o[

Anna at dVerse has us writing of reduction, Oulipo or surprising conceit.  I really don’t know if my effort covers any, but my purpose was to condense  or reduce what perhaps I might otherwise have written  - with a bit of metaphor thrown in.

My inspiration was that of a wonderful image at Real Toads, that of Toril “Smells Like Rain” and also an article in The Sunday Telegraph regarding Jihadi John which can be found here.

There are worrying clouds over this world of ours.

Fear

Time has had enough of him,

his ailing mind, his failing heart,

his withered pained contracted limbs;

will time come for him tonight?

And what of him? 

The he that is him?  

What of him? 

Synapses ripped apart

all he only knows is fear. 

He is man come neonate,

mind dissolving with each passing hour;

returning to from wherence he came,

but to no comfort of the womb.

He is a tiny bird, mouth gapes

sensing every spoon

as if willing eternal life. 

And so he lives,

lives every hungry spoonful.

Yet with each

and every intervention

he dies a little more,

screams out in pain and fear

as mouth gapes

swallows each and every hungry spoonful

as if wiling time before.

He has no place here,

time has enough of him;

will it come for him tonight?

Anna :o]

The above words are of Ted, or maybe Theresa, who was a resident of ours.   Ted had end stage dementia yet hung onto life year upon year upon year.  He had no quality of life, all he had was fear.    And for him, I wanted him to die, so wanted him to die.

And this winter, he finally gave up.  RIP Dear Ted.

Linked to:  dVerse OLN    Thanks to all at the pub.

Image:  Courtesy of Wikimedia Commons

Author: Nobuddy

General Paresis of the Insane

Midst loss of hope and deep despair

he longs to find someone to care,

but much to his chagrin he finds

there is no one who’ll tarry there. 

There in that place of troubled minds

where troubled souls are thus confined

to languish in their discontent,

abandoned they and left behind

He, the poor cad the miscreant,

syphilis made mad, he then sent

to languish in that utter hell

in hope of sins he would repent.

He left alone in barren cell

with troubled thoughts on which to dwell,

he yearns to hear that tolling bell. 

He yearns to hear that tolling bell.

He yearns to hear that tolling bell.

Anna :o]

After reading Björn’s and Claudia’s (early) responses to Gay’s prompt (at dVerse) I set pen to paper, or more accurately fingers to keyboard and up popped the first stanza.  Then I got lost so searched Wiki for an image and the rest followed from there.

I have worked in mental health since the early nineties, did my training in a psychiatric hospital -–long since closed -–and when there, vowed I would never work in such a  place (strictly against my conscience).  Don’t get me wrong, as in staff, there were many good people there - but I just felt they were in the wrong job. 

There is a definite stigma attached to mental (ill)health, a certain belief that those who suffer from it are malingerers  and there are those who indeed abuse the system for an odd sort of gain

There were certain young folk -–especially of the male variety -–who would get themselves sectioned, feign mental illness to escape prison sentences.

It is estimated that one in four of us will suffer mental ill-health in our lifetime and for a long time I personally disputed this figure - that is until I suffered from it, albeit to a low degree.  During this difficult period (for me) I found that my colleagues - who of course work in mental health - couldn’t deal with it.

Mental (ill)health - you are very very alone.

As of my response to the prompt, I know there is an extra line - but it just felt right.

Link: General paresis of the insane

Image: courtesy of Wikimedia Commons

Source: Web Gallery of Art:  

Where sea flows

If she could,

if she only could,

she would walk barefoot with him

into the mirage beyond the land

where sea flows.

Where sea flows

its saltwater tides,

the oft gentle ebb and flow

honouring its comfort of the moon

til storm breaks.

Til storm breaks

she and he are one

and then are rent asunder

as sea engulfs them in its anger

and love dies.

And love dies

beneath the torrent

of the rage that is the sea. 

She so wants to sail the world with him,

but she can’t.

Anna :o]

Oh dear, for a long time I have been lost in the abyss that is apathy; so often I have tried to respond to prompts’ – but there has been nothing there.  So I guess my offering reflects this hopelessness – but nevertheless it is written!  So thank you Tony for igniting my fire – hopefully it lasts!

Tony’s excellent prompt can be found at dVerse

Image:  Courtesy of  Wikimedia Commons

Author: Slaunger

Forever

Leaning towards the darkness

that is his and only his,

his eye captures the moon. 

Crickets chirrup evensong

as hesitant,

he takes first faltering step

into infinity.   

He flies without feathers. 

Soon

he will be naught but a red jewel

in an endless sea. 

He will ride with the tides,

forever searching, forever searching,

forever searching
for the lovely shadow of her face.

Anna :o] 

Grace’s challenge at Real Toads is to write a new poem or prose poem in response to James Wright’s words – please see prompt here.  The above is my response to his poem ‘Beginning.’

Also shared with the good folks at Poets United.

Image: Courtesy of Wikimedia Commons

Author:
Clawhammer91

Wind

He has screamed

at my touch for days now,

tis as if this Rose, his Rose

has become his crown of thorns

my love his exquisite agony.

I remember once

he threw me o’er his back

(I greenstick then)

and missed his aim,

and I ungrasped

in his huge navvy hands

tumbled headlong to the earth. 

(He cried then, the same tears

I am crying now.)

He is calcified,

as old on the hills

on once which he trod. 

He is broken, does not,

cannot bend with whispering

or even the wildest wind. 

(His cheeks puff out with every breath;

breath fights egress

through his flaccid whitened lips. 

(Sometimes he just stops

and I just wish he would not start again.))

Lips lips lips. 

With painted eyes and lips

redder than the reddest Rose,

I made my debut into womanhood,

and he, he exploded     mechanical

and called me whore,

but he was evil then,

boozed up with beer,

his cheeks redder than my painted lips. 

(I cried then the tears I am crying now.)

His back is not broken but his legs will not work. 

(God’s retribution, mother says. 

(Her eyes oft painted black by drunken fists.)) 

He is timorous now like the smallest mouse,

laying there waiting for his god to whisk him up

to a heaven he hopes (to God) exists.

Despite his flaying fists, I hope it does,

for him I hope it does.

He was the morning of my life,

the afternoon, and now I, his night. 

I love him, have always loved him,

yet I touch him, afraid and happy

as he winces…screams in pain…

And I cry now –

but do I cry for him or cry for me?

Roses die don’t they? 

I am the Rose between his teeth.

Anna :o]

Heavens, how in the past few weeks I have attempted to respond to prompts – but there has been nothing there, my mind completely empty.

This afternoon I read Björn’s post, to learn he to be the host on tonight’s dVerse – and the theme that of defamiliarisation.  So I researched it and came up with the above offering.  I am not certain it fits the bill – but will offer it anyway.

Thanks Björn’ for igniting the grey matter.

I must state that the inspiration came from the thoughts of a friend – whose father is in the process of dying.  My friend is of the catholic faith – as is my handsome one.  My friend is finding it very hard to come to terms that ‘his God’ is allowing his father to die in agony.

I must also add that my friend’s father is not an alcoholic and that the offered words are a compilation of stories told to me, told to me by folks dealing with death or imminent death of those they love.  And there is a bit in there about the death of my father too.

Image:  courtesy of Wikimedia Commons

Foie gras

Sometimes,

when his heart chimes in robust rhymes

and her knee is all a-flutter,

why is it then the speckled hen

spreads margarine, not butter? 

And so it is upon first kiss

when all is lost    but all is not forsaken,

the cow is left to wonder how

and the pig brings home the bacon. 

And Deidre duck does not give a f*ck as corn

is shoved eiderdown    an ever-resisting gullet,

for it is then when speckled hen wonders (wearily) by

she knows that she can pullet.

And of the pull or perhaps the wool

of a lamb of fleecing coat,

while the prancing pig does a sailors jig  -

why does the goat gets on his goat?

Anna :o]

Bjorn at dVerse as us writing poems of no meaning at all.  Of course the above has a deep meaning to me (;o]) as in the  trials and tribulations’ of my (present) life – but perhaps I need an analyst? :o]

Video: Courtesy of YouTube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D_JeKZd9ecE

End Times: Trilogy

Mount Sinjar

In this land

those who fight for their lives

bury their dead;

those who fight for their god

bury the living. 

God is in Heaven,

weeping, wailing,

wringing His hands,

despairing of His Creation. 

There are no virgins here

and hell is full of martyrs.

 Uttar Pradesh

Two girls:

sisters:  innocent, virginal:

Untouchables

bar that soft space between their thighs.

Debase, driven,

testosterone alive they came,

that sordid band of sordid men

took turns in their defilement.

The mango tree bears witness

and gives its boughs in testimony,

those boughs whereon those sisters hang,

a noose around each neck,

heads forever bowed in shame.

Syria

Here, in this land

vultures wait,

vultures both bird and barely human,

they wait;

wait to pick at the bones of children

of a lesser God.

Here too hyena howls

as he tears at the viscera. 

No clean death here,

rather that to distil a final dread. 

The child (smiling)

holds a decapitated head. 

His father:

nihilistic psychopath, smiles, proud,

as he stands knee-deep

in that primordial soup from whence we came.

How did it come to this?

What have we become?

(And God weeps wails distraught at His Creation.  

There are no virgins here and hell is full of martyrs.)

Anna :o[

I don’t know about you good folks – but I despair of/am (so) afraid for mankind.  I do know (and realise) that we human things are and have been capable of the most barbaric and grotesque atrocities since we slithered out of the primordial soup.  We are whether we admit to it or like it or not – tribal.  That is what we are. 

We cling to our identities, what we thinks make us who we are.  We cling to our class our caste our religion our colour our gender our intellect– whatever we thinks makes us superior to the man standing next to us.  We look up to our God in the same way we feel easy in looking down on those we think inferior.  We are tribal.  That is what we are.

Accepting diversity – hell no, we are afraid of it, afraid of them.   We don’t understand their different ways their different cultures  their different way of thinking, no more than they wish to understand ours.  We are tribal.  That is what we are.  We are afraid of what we don’t understand.  (And sometimes we should be sorely afraid.)

I must admit that of late I had become Islamaphobic – fearing those zealots’ who purport to follow Islam.  Please understand I don’t fear all that follow Islam – yet I am (still) afraid of it.  I fear/feared those who wish the entire world to bend their knees to Islam would have their way – for this crazy thing of human rights and the fear of offending others will leave us weak and vulnerable.

Yet this article in The Telegraph put me right.  For those in Isil are nihilistic psychopaths and it up to us in the rest of the world – whether it be east or west – to rout them out – for if not, if we stand back afraid – they will overcome.  F*ck whether there is oil or not – we must preserve humanity.

Tis true that in our sordid past, much evil has been done in the name of Christianity – so we (who are born into this faith) cannot be smug and sit back in judgement.   We must admit to our own branch of evil.  

We must admit to what is front of our eyes NOW.

The world is now a tiny space, what with the Internet and the freedom of travel. And (because of this) present day evil is so easy to leave at our door, no, enter it.  Whatever the guise, evil is and always has been ever-present and we must pull ourselves out of the primordial soup and stamp it out.  But we will not, for some – the majority(?) - of us in the west are so wrapped up in the touchy-feely of ‘human rights’ we forget what human rights truly mean.

Off on a tangent: whilst watching the (horror of the) news at work with a resident, she remarked:  It’s always men isn’t it?  And I had to agree with her (as I had thought this myself) – for 99.9% of the time – it always is.

What say you men?  

Shared with the good folk at OLN at dVerse

Image: Courtesy of Wikimedia Commons

Author: Rennett Stowe from USA

References:  Mount Sinjar:

http://www.theguardian.com/world/2014/aug/27/-sp-yazidis-mount-sinjar-isis-satellite-im http://www.mercatornet.com/sheila_liaugminas/view/14584ages 

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/middle-east/iraq-crisis-islamic-militants-buried-alive-yazidi-women-and-children-in-attack-that-killed-500-9659695.html

Uttar Pradesh:

http://www.indiatimes.com/news/more-from-india/indias-shame-gangrape-of-dalit-sisters-sparks-global-outrage-151778.html  WARNING: graphic image.

http://www.theguardian.com/world/2014/may/29/indian-sisters-gang-raped-hanged-tree

http://www.aljazeera.com/news/asia/2014/05/indian-girls-found-hanging-after-gang-rape-201452962810881417.html  

Syria:

http://www.arabtimesonline.com/NewsDetails/tabid/96/smid/414/ArticleID/206336/reftab/69/t/Vultures-destroy-Syria-as-powers-debate/Default.aspx  http://www.arabtimesonline.com/NewsDetails/tabid/96/smid/414/ArticleID/208845/reftab/96/t/They-teach-them-to-behead/Default.aspx   
http://www.theguardian.com/world/2014/aug/13/we-must-look-past-shock-tactics-like-a-child-holding-a-severed-head-in-syria

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldnews/australiaandthepacific/australia/11025803/Australian-PM-denounces-image-of-seven-year-old-boy-holding-a-severed-head-as-barbaric.html

Bleeding Hearts

Sometimes (no, it’s often)

she hangs there, just hangs there,

a string of bleeding hearts

slowly tightening round her neck. 

I loved you once y’know she says

(she whispers it, pulsates it out).

I know he says as

he sits there drowning

in a blood red caring sea.  

(Those bleeding hearts bleed out

for him and not for her.)  

They come for me he says,

they come for me.

And so they do.

She is collateral damage

in the strange battlefield of care. 

She is expendable.

 

His needs string the noose around her neck. 

He will be the death of her.

Anna :o]

This is a re-write of my previous post which was so convoluted I don’t really understand it myself.

Life at the ranch is pretty bad and has been for some time.  Handsome one was hospitalised for two months earlier this year and his needs have increased five-fold.   Before hospitalisation I was finding it increasingly difficult to cope, what with meeting his needs and holding down a full time job.  Due to financial commitments giving up work is not possible, nor do I want to.  I have my needs too.

I did not expect him to come home, rather enter care, and with this came a sense of relief.  However he was deemed to have capacity and expressed a wish to come home – so he did.  My needs and my ability to cope did not enter the equation.  He came home with an extensive care package in place – its supposed intention to help me.  But oh how I hate it – it is so intrusive and my right to privacy is gone.

The carers are good folk – but in their caring are drowning any independence handsome one had, pushing him deeper into the sick-role, deskilling him and giving him entitlement, an entitlement he feels to do less and less for himself – and thus increasing my burden.

This feeling of entitlement has brought about a personality change and he has said some hateful things to me, this from my best friend of many years – I can honestly count on one hand how many times we have rowed in our married life.  And now I no longer love him.  I cannot forget what he has said, can’t deal with how selfish he has become.

When I was a student nurse, I had a sixteen week placement with the Community Psychiatric Team, my mentor ‘Dave.’  We regularly visited an elderly couple – Charlie & Margaret – Margaret having dementia and Charlie finding it extremely difficult to cope.

Across the weeks I saw Charlie’s mental health deteriorate rapidly but Dave was determined to keep them together, keep Margaret out of hospital or care home.

I informed Dave I thought he was terribly wrong, in that he was sacrificing Charlie’s mental health for an egoistic unreachable goal.  He smugly said I was wrong.  (Both Charlie & Margaret ended up in care…)

In all my years as a student, I only received one bad end-of-placement report.  It was from Dave – he thought I was opinionated.  What really annoyed me was that he didn’t have the balls to discuss this whilst I was on my placement – rather hide behind the report.

And now I am Charlie.  For the first time in my life I am depressed.  I have no rights to determine my future whatsoever. I hate my home life – but I am expendable.

The above shared with the good folk at Poets United – hosted by the lovely Mary.

I must admit to not reading everyone’s posts in other prompts I have entered this year – and for that I apologise.  It is just that other things get in the way or I lose heart motivation due to my oft miserable state.   I will endeavour to be a good girl and read yours – if I don’t, sorry.

Image:  Courtesy of Wikimedia Commons

Author:  flemming christiansen from hammer, denmark

Noose

Sometimes she hangs there

throttled by a string of bleeding hearts

I love you y’know she says

(she whispers it, pulsates it out).

And here he sits,

drowning in blood-red horizon.

He says: I know I know.   

And slowly suffocates,

longs angel lust, last man standing.

She is the noose around his neck,

the spittle on his arid tongue. 

She is the death of him.

Anna :o]

Due to life circumstances, I have a serious case of writers block.  Claudia at dVerse has us writing bold metaphors and images.  I don’t know whether the above quite fits the bill – but after weeks of a dying thirst in an arid desert – I have finally completed something.  So I shall offer it.

Perhaps it is a metaphor for my present circumstances…

Image: Courtesy of  Wikimedia Commons

Author: Sander van der Wel from Netherlands

He Sees Not Gain

Not To Be Reproduced, 1937, Rene Magritte 

Errare humanum est, perseverare autem diabolicum

He sees not gain from broken hearts

yet ‘gainst himself he stacks the deck.

All hopes of love he pulls apart

and ‘gainst himself he turns his back.  

Hope nullified: compulsion marks

a broken heart as love he wrecks.

(And persistence perpetuates

as self-destruction replicates)

Anna :o]

Posted for Real Toads - Yeats Octaves, Magpie Tales (image) and shared with Poets United.

Thank you Kerry, Tess & Mary